Beginning at 3:00, sitting in the grass
Memorize how the daylight falls
Before it all goes dark too fast.
I want to run, the sleep can wait.
Beetles and Insect skeletons lining
the lonely corners I’ve been hiding in
Too scared to start again, so stuck on pretending,
Discard the feeling because you can’t feel the right way
Numbing the meaning in the morning when you can’t stay late
you ask me again. and
Who are you?
All of my mistakes are made and I am stained in these shades of shame.
Memorize how the daylight fades
Another day wasted away
Eyes/lights blink – spin, sway
I don’t have anything to say
rose and lemon soft and lovely/sour candy
First taste bliss but leave feeling empty
Lavender and Violet
matching my bruises,
capture the sky
camera my mind
laundry detergent, washing machine
hidden in the closet, butterflies mistaken for
dead, falling Autumn leaves.
Sitting at the base of a skyscraper and all
is varying lights:soft orange, electric blue,
yellow fluorescent stars
melodies repeating, memories twisted
And tangled into something tangible
A spider’s lace slowly invading every crevice;
headaches and rocks (Amphetamines)
keeping me restless
Promise me that you won’t forget this
Close your eyes
You’re flying through the air
Loose grip//Quick slip
Open your eyes
You’re falling through the air
And then the sun rises and November is over.
The train takes you downtown too soon and you spend some hours alone.
Watching leaves fall and dance around in the sky before they hit the ground
for the first time in their lives.
Quit the chemical impact, inject a new poison into this bloodstream
and keep quiet when you want to scream.
How could all of this possibly add up to mean anything?
When you go out into the streets and watch the lives they all decide to lead;
leave behind some piece of mind for those lost and waiting
for some rock-bottom, higher-power saving.
And when the time comes, who’s to say you wont be too weak to move
Forget what they told you,
December is a cold blue.
(Maria Villa/CoS Student)